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N¼nNp«³.sWäv fin ASn^v kn«n«nà …AS_n]mkp¶ Df Aksâ NphrSnNav AWpkUn¨p sNmXp¡pN]m\v . b`knVNm^\§am`v Ak^psX knkmiw Wo*p tbmkpN]m\p*m]Sv .. {boZn{Pn bmhm] fin SpX^v¶v bYn¡WmkmsS Nn«p¶ tKm`nNav sI]vSp Kokn¡p¶p .
fmSyp F¶ _n«]^vZv b«ma¡m^sâ bn¡¸v HmXn¡pN]m\nt¸mav fin .. Aksâ Nã¸mXv N*n«v fmSyp hm^v FXp¯p sNmXp¯Sv Bs\¶v tk\sf¦n`v b_]mw .B k*n .. b«ma¯n`v B]n^p¶ fmSyp hm^v Ct¸mav Ssâ bp^]nX¯n`v Nrgn sI]vSpw sI¿n¸n¨pw kn{lfKoknSw BhzUn¡pN]m\v
Bt_jp blp¡apsX bm`pw fämUm]§apw sXu\n`v sNm*v tbm]n sNmXp¡pN .. Nrgn¡pw fäpfpÅ hmVW§av F¯n¡pN fpS`m] tKm`nNav sI]vSm`v bns¶ bn¡¸v sNm*v Nn«p¶ k^pfmWw fin¡v hz´fm\v . bs£ ASn`v Wn¶v Nn«p¶ k^pfmWw AktWm¶pfmNp¶nÃ.
BUyw A½]psX f^p¶nWpw fäpfms\¦n`v Ct¸mav A½m]n]psX InNnÕ¡pw fäpw ..CXs¡ms¡ Aksâ Bkly§a_nªp fmSyp hm^v him]n ¡pN]pw sI¿m_p*v
‘ fin …Wo sXu\nt`¡v Bs\¦n`v Np_¨p hmVW§av k§mWpt*.. B FXm fin … foWv CWn bnXn¡mWv Dt*m fmSyptW knan¨t¸mav tImUn¡mWpw kn«p “”
‘ Cu]nsX C«sS DÅq kntlz«m .. ^tflsâ Npa¯n`v Nm\pfm]n^n¡pw … H¯n^n PÌp*¶p tSm¶p¶tÃm “” knlzWmTWv Wo«n] Wo* `nÌv km§n tWm¡n sNm*v fin b_ªp .
“” B .. tfmapsX N`ym\ WnÝ]fm\v … Fsâ NqsX D*m]n^p¶ PwPmV^sâ tfmWm sI_p¡Wv … As¸m bns¶ sl^ns¡m¶p h`v¡^n¡t* ?…B Wo Wn`v¡v … Akav¡qXn kÃSpw km§t\m F¶v tImUn¡s« . “”
knlzWmTWv ANt¯¡v tbm]t¸mav fin sbjvhns`¡v ssbh FXp¯p sk¨p . tbjvhns` Df]psX tcmt«m]nt`¡v tWm¡n]kWv C^p¶p …
sI_p¸w fpSt` Nm\p¶Sm\kta …N×p¶n`m\v Df fq¯v knaªSv … knaª tPmS¼nsâ Wn_fm\kav¡v . Ft¸mjpw bp©n^n SqNp¶ fpOw … Wo*p knX^v¶ N®pNav . WWkpÅ tIm^¨pk¸pÅ Ip*pNav .
“” fin … B …Wo tbmt¡mXm …”” knlzWmTWv b_ªt¸mav fin k*ns]Xp¯p ..

A½]psX .. (A½m]nBs\¦n`pw b*v fpSt` Df knan¡p¶Sv tbms` A½s]¶m\kWpw knan¡p¶Sv , Df Aksâ A½s]]pw A§sW Ss¶ , ) Hm¸t_gWv B]n^p¶p ss{Zkn`pw Aksâ fWÊn`v ..hz^p¡q«n] h¼mUyw B]n BsN DÅSv Df]psX Njp¯ns` tW^n] sI]nWv fm{Sfm\v . GSm*v A^bktWmaw k^p¶Sv .. AknXknsX B]n dm¦n`v H^p C^pb¯nA¿m]n^w Nm\pw … FknsX Wn¶m\v ssbh `en¡pN . Cs¸m Ss¶ WÃ H^p SpNt]maw fmSyp hm_nWv sNmXp¡mWp*v .. WÃ fWpgWv Bs\¦n`pw CWn]p N¼nNp«³.sWäv