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N¼nNp«³.sWäv … bn¡¸nsâ ss`äv N*sS fmSyp k^m´]ns`]pw bp_s¯]pw ss`äpNav Hmcm¡n]n^p¶p . AN¯p Wn¶v tW^v¯ sk«w bp_s¯¡p*v . fmSyp Akav Wn`v¡p¶nXt¯¡v tWm¡n .. f§n] sk«¯n`v AkapsX fpOw kyàfà … H¶pw fn*msS ANt¯¡v WX¶ fmSypknsW Akav bn´pX^v¶p ..

ANt¯¡v N]_n] fmSyp Akav NqXn N]_n]t¸mav SnXp¡s¸«p k^m´]nt`¡pÅ kmSn`v Npän]n«p . A]mav imans` CXSp kl¯pÅ fp_n Iq*n Nm\n¨n«v Ssâ fp_n]nt`¡v WX¶p . fmSyp tWs^ dm{Sqfns`¡v N]_n tUisfm¶p NjpNn … Nk`¡v bp_s¸Xpw fpWvtb b_¼n`v Wn¶pw k¶n«v H¶v Npan¨Sm\v .. Sn^nsN k¶p H^p skÅss¡`ns]Xp¯pXp¯p… H^p skÅ g^v«pw . F¶n«pw bp_t¯¡n_§msS A]mav hz´w fp_n]n`v hf]w sbm¡n … A^ f\n¡q^v tfs` Njnªp

BUyfm]m\v C§sW … H^p sb®psfm¯v .. BUy^m{Sn]nt`¡mav b^tklkpw e]kpw ..

tk*ms]¶p sks¨¦n`pw fmSyp A`fm^n]n`v Wn¶pw Np¸ns]Xp¯p … ¥mhvsd FXp¯v H^p `m^vKv Hjn¨ tlgw sdZnWp sshZns` f\vNqKs]Xp¯v ¥mÊnt`¡v Nfnjv¯ns]¦n`pw H^p SpXw tbm`pw Nn«n]nà . ss{Z AXn¨p lo`fnà … Wn_s] skÅsfmjn¨v , A`vbm`vbfm]n C^p¶p Njn¡m_m\v bSnkv .. hm^fnà … Akav AknsXs]§mWpw Ds*¦nt`m … tk* …. Hä k`n¡v NpXn¡mWm]n ¥mhv Ipt*mXp fp«n¨Spw bp_Nn`v Wns¶m^p bSnª lÐw tN«]mav sM«n .

“” hm^v skÅw ..””

“” tR ? ‘””
fmSyp sM«n¯n^nªp .N¿n`n^p¶ ¥mhv Smsj ko\nÃs]s¶ DÅq … kmSn`v¡`v Akav … tbs^´m\mtkm ? ASv tbm`pw tImUn¨nà .. sb«¶v A]mav tWm«w fmän … F¶m`pw B N®pNans` emkw tbXnN`^v¶ H^p tlmNemkw Bs\¶]mav Sn^n¨_nªp …

“” AknsX sks¨¡q..”” Akav AXp¯v k^p¶Sv bSnª bmUbSWlЯn`qsX]]mav A_nªp .. AkapsX]mt\m AtSm S`fpXn]ns` Bt\m fpÃm¸qknsâ]pw Nm¨n] skans¨®]psX]pw f\w. Akav sk¨ NqK FXp¡mWm]n Sn^nªt¸mav NqK]psX AXp¯v H^p t¹än`v A]` k_p¯Spw hkmaA^nªSpw fsäm¶n`v b¸Xw N_ntk¸n`]n«v k_ps¯Xp¯v b¨fpaNv km«n No_n]Spw N*p …

Ckam^v? -! Ssâ Cã§apw B{Pi§apw bSnkpNapw A_nsª¶ tbms` sb^pfm_p¶p ??

fmSyp skÅw Hjn¨v Häk`n¡v AN¯m¡n .. ^*pfq¶p b¸Xkpw km]n`n«p Ik¨p … F§pWnt¶m k¶ BßssV^y¯n`v Akav tbmt]ms]¶p Sn^nªp tWm¡n . sdZnsâ sshZn`pÅ tXdnan`v Wn^¶p NnX¡p¶ ss`{d_n dp¡pNapw Z]_nNapw AXp¡n sk¡pN]m\kav . b¨Na_n`pÅ H^p UmkWn]m\v N¼nNp«³.sWäv