ഹൃദയത്തിന്‍റെ ഡയറിക്കുറിപ്പ്‌ [മന്ദന്‍ രാജാ] 441

N¼nNp«³.sWäv St`¶v AkapsX sb^pfmäkpw hwhm^kpw Hs¡ A]msa H¯n^n hwSrbvSWv B¡n]n^p¶p … AN¯v sk¡mWmkm¯ Wn^ml Akav km sNm*v So^v¯n^p¶p .. fm{Sfà Du\v kna¼nsNmXp¯pw, H^p em^ys] tbms` NqsX C^p¶pw NnX¶pw hwhm^n¨pw , Nan¨pw In^n¨pw …Ak^v bp`^vs¨ Ft¸mtjm B\v D_§n]Sv . H^m]phv NqsX]p*m]n^p¶Sv tbms`]m\v Akav A]mtamXvsb^pfm_n]Sv…Sn^n¨]mapw ..

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sIss¶]n`v Wn¶pw fX§ns]¯n] fmSyp BUyw AtWzgn¨Sv fins] B]n^p¶p … AksW Njnª Wm`v fmhfm]n knan¨n«v Nn«p¶nÃm]n^p¶p … AkWpw knan¨nà …. Nk`]n`v AtWzgn¨t¸mav Cu]nsXs]m¶pw N*nÃms]¶m\v b_ªSv … fmSyp ko«nt`¡v WX¶p ..UmtfmU^sâ Im]¡X]n`v AtWzgn¨m`v A_n]mw ..A]mam\tÃm fins] b^nI]s¸Xp¯n]Sv .. A]man¶v Sp_¶n«pfnà … GtSm N`ym\¯nWv tbm]Sms\¶v .

ko«ns`¯n] fmSyp koXpw b^nh^kpfmsN I¸pw Ik_pfm]n NnX¡p¶Sm\v N*Sv … dmPv k^m´]n`v sk¨n«v sSmjp¯nt`¡v WX¶p … sSmjp¯v Nm`n … KmWNn FknsX tbm]Smt\m Btkm …tkPw AN¯p sI¶v , Npan¨p s{ZÊpw fm_n fmSyp KmWNn]psX ko«nt`¡v WX¶p .AknsX]pw Bs^]pw Nm\mWv Njnªnà …. Ak^nÃm¯t¸mav him]n¡p¶ BapsX ko«nt`¡v A]mav VrSn]n`v WX¶p .

“” B hmt_m? hms_t¸m k¶p …hm_nsW knan¡mWm]n Nps_ {lfn¨Sm … KmWNotI¨osX N¿n`v W¼^v sNmXp¯nÃm^pt¶m …Aks^knsXt]m sk¨p f_¶p “” fpä¯v sNm{b D\¡n sNm*n^p¶ A]mav fp*jn¨n«v Fjpt¶äp

“” F¶n«v KmWNn Hs¡ FknsX ? sSmjp¯ns` blp¡av “”

“” FXns] …. ASnt§ms«Xps¯”” ANt¯¡v tWm¡n knan¨p b_ªn«]mav fmSypknsâ fp¶nt`¡v Nth^ k`n¨n«p

“” hm_n^p¶ms«…”” fmSyp Nth^]ns`¡n^p¶p .

“” tlOt^«Wv sb«¶v AhpOw fq^v¨n¨p … Blq{So ^*pfq¶p Unkhw NnX¶p …. bns¶ Bav tbm]n …. “”

“” At¿m … MmW_nªnà CsSm¶pw … fin]pw b_ªnà …AktWm«p knan¨pfnà MmWv knan¨n«v Nn«p¶pfnÃm]n^p¶p “”

‘ ASm Gtämw k`y h¦Xw …tlOt^«Wv k]hms]¶p N^pSmw … bns¶ {bm]¯ntâw Hs¡ AhpO§apw Bhvtfw Hs¡ … fint]m … AksW´p bäoSm C{S sb«¶v … §m …. WtÃms^ ssUkw tW^s¯ knan¡q¶tà …””

‘ F¶m …F¶m Wo b_sª …”” fmSypknWp A]mav bns¶ b_ªsSm¶pw tNav¡mWv bän]nà … N¼nNp«³.sWäv