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N¼nNp«³.sWäv km§n …Ssâ fp¶n`v H^p d`q\v tbms` NnX¶p SpÅn Spap¼p¶ AkapsX sNmjp¯ fp`Nav Nl¡nsM^n¨]mav AkapsX bq_n`v N]_n]n_§n … .. Aksa S¶nt`¡v Af^v¯n B N®pNan`v tWm¡n]pw , Ip*pNav Wp\ªpw A]mav Akant`¡v Ssâ bm`v Hjp¡n …

“” sâ sfm` ..NpXnt¡«m … BÒw … NpXn ..”” B`hy¯n`v A]mapsX A^nNn`v NnX¶p sNm*v Df Ssâ fp` A]mapsX km]nt`¡v SÅn sNmXp¯p ..kn^`pNav sNm*v S`fpXn]n`v b^SnsNm*kav f]¡¯nt`¡v ko\p …hpON^fm] B Wn{U]nt`¡v A]mapw b¦man]mkpNm]n^p¶p .

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BjvINav NX¶p tbm]n .. Nm«pSo b^¡p¶Sv tbms`]m\v fmSypknsâ NqsX Smfhn¡p¶ hpµ^n]m] sb®nsW bän Wm«n`v km^v¯ b^¶Sv ….

H^p Unkhw ……

^mkns` fmSyp Nm¸n]pw NpXn¨p Njnªv b_¼nt`¡v C_§n] hf]¯m\v H^p tcm\v k¶Sv … Df B tNmav AäWvZv sI]vSp …

D¨¡v D®mWv tk*n ko«nt`¡v k¶ fmSyp Dfs] ko«n`v N*nà … koXnsâ FÃm fq`]n`pw b^nh^¯pw A]mav AtWzgn¨n«pw Aksa N*nà ….

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‘ im … MmWnknsX D*v tKmKn …hvs_Ã FknsX]m ? Bt\m ..Akant§m«p tbm^p¶pt*m ?’

“” Òvfw … FWns¡m¶pw tk*m … Wn§¡v tkt\`v Wn§av k¶p tfXnt¨m … FWn¡v k¿ A¸¨sâ Cu AkØ N*n«v … H¯n^n ssbh D*m¡n]n«v F¶m¯nWm ?’ doW tUgyt¯msX tcm\v N«v sI]vSp …

“” B tdmdn¨m]m …MmWv Blpb{Sn]n`v Wn¶v A¸¨sâ s{Zhv FXp¡mWv k¶Sm …. Cà Bt^ G`v¸n¨n«v tbm^mWm ..tW^vhntWmXv H¶v tWm¡\sf¶v b_ªp …… tdmdn¨m]Wv k^p¶pt*m Ct§m«v …… Hm …ASv fm{Sw tWm¡n]m fSn ….A¸¨Wv A§sW H¶pw f^n¡ptk`m ….fm{Sfà . Ct¶m Wmsat]m fn¡km_pw tbm^mWpw bäpw …fq¶p Unkhw B]ntà ……ATkm f^n¨m`pw FknsX tkt\`pw MmWv H¸n«p St¶mamw …. Hm ..A`N-vhnsâ h½Stfm ? ASm^v¡v tk\w ….. FÃmw Dtb£n¨n«m MmWnt§m«v ks¶ …Fsâ tfmsW fm{Stf tdmVys¸Xp¯mWv DÅq … MmWv sks¨¡pkm ..kosX¯n … s{Zhv FXp¯nt¸m Ss¶ tbmN\w””””

doW k¶ Hmt«m b_ªp kn«n«v, kmSn`v Sp_¶N¯p N]_n ..SnXp¡s¸s«m^p Npan bmhm¡n ..

A¸¨sW timhvbnä`n`v AZvfnäv B¡ns]¶v A_nªt¸mav AXp¯ cvss`änWp tbm¶Sm\kav …C¶v N¼nNp«³.sWäv