ഹൃദയത്തിന്‍റെ ഡയറിക്കുറിപ്പ്‌ [മന്ദന്‍ രാജാ] 441

N¼nNp«³.sWäv fmSyp A`vbw Bim^sfms¡ Njn¨v, SWns] WX¶p dm{Sqfnt`ms¡ tbm]t¸mav fm_mWpÅ s{Zhv FXp¡mWm]n k¶Sm\v

b*s¯ A¸¨sW Aà doW k¶t¸mav N*Sv … A`N-vhntWmXv A¸¨Wv timhvbnä`n`v Bs\¶v b_ªt¸mav BUyw b_ªSv hzs¯ms¡ Ct¸mtj FjpSn km§nt¨m ..f^n¨p Njnªm`v bns¶ Wq`mfm`Nav BNpsf¶m\v BUyw b_ªSv … doW¡tSm^v¯t¸mav bpÑw tSm¶n … k¶n«v , A¸¨sW§sW Ds*¶p tbm`pw tImUn¡msS , tb¸_pNav S¿m_m¡n cmN-vhv A]¨ A`N-vhntWmXv Akav km]n`v tSm¶n]sSÃmw b_ªp … hin¡p¶SnWpw H^p b^nVn]p*tÃm …

hvs_à knan¨t¸mjpw ASv Ss¶]m\v b_ªSv ….hz¯v … Akav AVnNw hwhm^n¡msS tKmKn¡v ssNfm_pN]m]n^p¶p … Akav A¸¨Wv F§sW Ds*s¶¦n`pw tImUn¨p …. Ft´m kngfw Aksa]pw ANäp¶p*v ..

doW fmSypknsâ fp_n]nt`¡v N]_n . sg`vcn`v Wn¶pw A¸¨sâ g^v«pw fp*pw FXp¯t¸mav B\v AkapsX Nm`v¨pk«ns`¡v fX¡n] H^p NX`mÊv k¶p ko\Sv … doW AsSXp¯p km]n¨p …

“” “” {bn] hm_nWv,

Ft¶mXv AWnãsfm¶pw tSm¶^pSv . A½m]n]psX Hm¸t_gWv tk*n]pÅ b\¯nWm]m\v MmWv sIss¶¡v tbm]Sv . AknsX sk¨v MmWv Ndan¡s¸«p ….Aà … H^n¡`pw AsSm^p bän¡`v B]n^p¶nà … Ak^psX ØnSn fWhn`m¡n MmWv tbm^pN]m]n^p¶p ssbh tk*m¶p sk¨v … CknsX k¶t¸mtj¡pw MmWv AklWm]n^p¶p………..””

doW¡v dm¡n km]n¡mWm]nà ….Akav H^p knSp¼t`msX Sn^nªt¸mav B\v tfl]n`v Wnk^v¯n sk¨n^n¡p¶ H^p Z]_n]pw tbW]pw Nm\p¶Sv ….. AkasSXp¯p.

AZG 20

A¸¨Wv M§sa Np_ns¨m^p knIm^kpfnÃ…. H^p Wm\kpw fmWkpfnÃmsS H^p sb®nsW Nq«n sNm*p k¶v…. ASpw M§apsX {bm]¯n DÅ H^p¯n….F§sW tSm¶n CSv..A¸¨³ CtSks^ M§apsX Nm^ykpw AtWzgn¨n«pt*m….H¶p km^ns]Xp¯p D½ sk¨n«pt*m? Njn¡m³ Bim^w Dt*m¶v AtWzgn¨n«pt*m… H^p DXps¸¦n`pw km§n S¶n«pt*m?

H¶pw S¶n«nÃ…. CWn Wm\t¡Xv F¦n`pw D*m¡n S^mSn^p¶qsX. “”

sÌà tcm\n knan¨p b_ªt¸mÄ FWn¡v f_pbXn D*m]n^p¶nÃ. Akav ASnWp fpWvbpw knan¨p Nm\psf¶p tSm¶n ..Df]mkpw tcm\v FXp¯n«p*mkpN …BSmkpw Dfs] CknsX Nm\mSn^p¶Spw ….

sl^n]m\v Mm³ Wn§Ä¡v H¶pw sI]vSp S¶n«nÃ. H¶p km^ns]Xp¯p sNm©n¨n«nÃ… ssN bnXn¨p fmt´m¸n`pw, bpjt]m^¯pw fmÀ¡än`pw sNm*p tbm]n«nÃ.. Wn§Ä¡v tk*n H¶pw sI]vSn«nÃ…

Wn§sX N¼nNp«³.sWäv