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N¼nNp«³.sWäv sIÃpt¼mjpw H^N`v¨ ..b«ma¡m^Wm] A¸¨tWmXpÅ tbXnt]m dipfmWtfm B]n^n¡psf¶v N^pSn .
fmSypknsâ b_¼ntWmXv tI^v¶v NnX¡p¶Sm\v lnk^mfsâ bSnWs©¡^v _d^v tSm«w.lnk^mfWv Z`vin]ns`t§m B\v . N¨kX¯n Wm]n^n¡pw Wm«ns`¯n]n«p*v ….. C¶v Nk`]n`v sk¨v N*n^p¶p . tdmdn]psX I§mSn B]n^p¶p lnk^mfWv . N®m] Ø`w B\v ..Wãsfm¶pfnà ..F´v kn`¡m\v tdmdn km§ns] F¶v tbm`pf_n]nà …
In´Nav fWhn`v NmXpN]_n]t¸mav fmSyp bns¶]pw Xnkn]nt`¡v N®v W«p.. fSkpw ^m{ão]kpw … ASnÃmsS H^p km^v¯ ]pfnà .. tkm«nWm]n fStWSm¡sa {bo\n¸n¡p¶ ^m{ão] sIäNav .. ^m{ão]¯n`v Wn¶v fSkpw , fS¯n`v Wn¶v ^m{ão]kpw ANän F¶v Wn^v¯pt¶m At¶ Cu WmXv PSn bnXn¡q …. sbmSpKW§apsX N¿n`v N¿n«p km^n Nol ko^v¸n¨p , ko*pw Ak^n`v Wn¶v tNmj km§n Ak^v¡v tk*n e^n¡p¶ Wm]nsâ f¡av … fS tWSm¡apw ^m{ão] tNmf^§apw
fmSyp tUgyt¯msX ImW`v fmän . WnSwdw Np`p¡n H«n] k]^v Nm\n¨p ZmWvhv Nan¡p¶ Sfnjv WXnfm^v …N®o^v Nm\n¨p ko«½½ms^ shân]Xn¸n¡p¶ SpX^v ho^n]`pNav .A]mav H^p hnbv FXp¯n«p AXp¡a]nt`¡v WX¶p .. fXp¸n¡p¶ GNm´S … hmVm^m\ f¡av A¸¨Wv F´nWm Wm«n`v SWns] NnX¡ps¶ F¶v tImUn¡m_p*v .. H^p tb^nsW¦n`pw … CSSv tbm`pfnÃtÃm …fXp¸n¡p¶ Hs^Nm´S A]msa bnXn¨p`¨p. ^*p I¸m¯n]pw fpa¸n¨ b]_pw S¡man Woa¯n`v A_nªn «Sn`v b¨fpaNpw D¸pw knS_n]n«v fmSyp AXp¯ sbPv Hjn¨p ..
“”””^mtPµpNn^\§av Hankolo]nÃm ^KWoNUwd§av fnjnIn½n]nÃm
fUtWmÕk§av¡p Wn_fm` Im^v¯o fWkpw SWpkpw f^peqfn]m]n
Wn{UmknioW§atÃm F¶pw AkapsX ^mkpNav F¶pw AkapsX ^mkpNav””””
fyq«v fmän]t¸mavXnkn]n`v Wn¶v bp_t¯¡v bmt«mjpNn .. hof]psX l^o^w PmW¯ntWm¯p ZmWvhv Nan¨t¸mav fmSyp At§m«v tWm¡msS N®pNav AX¨p ..C¼fpÅ bm«v .. bs£ tNav¡mWpÅ fmWhnNmkØ]n`v AÃtÃm Ct¸mav …
‘ F´nWm Fs¶ knant¨ ? Hm … FÃm^pw knan¡p¶SnWv Wn§apw knan¨p “” hof]psX Z]t`mPv B\v fmSyp knsW ko*pw Xnkn]nt`¡v b_n¨p W«Sv .. thmfWv fp¶n`v s»uhv Du^n skap¯ {dm]n`v Wn`v¡p¶ hofs] N*t¸mav Hmt^m In´mNpj¸¯n`pw fmSypknWv Np® hXNpXsªjpt¶äp .
“”- fWpgyWv {bm´v bnXn¨n^n¡pt¼mjm AXp¯ k¿mtk`n ..”” fmSyp Xnkn Hmcm¡n … H^p Wnfngw Njnª]mav ko*pw Xnkn Hm\m¡n …bns¶]pw Hmcm¡n …bns¶]pw Hm\m¡n ..
– Wmlw N¼nNp«³.sWäv