ഹൃദയത്തിന്‍റെ ഡയറിക്കുറിപ്പ്‌ [മന്ദന്‍ രാജാ] 438

N¼nNp«³.sWäv k`n] DbNm^w B]SnWm`v fn¡km_pw AknsX AWvbSn`v AVnNw Np«nNav D*mkpw C^pb¯nWm`v f\n¡q_pw … H^mav tbmNpt¼mav fsäm^mav F¶ ^oSn]n`v .

tKmKns] Cu kjns¡m¶pw Nm\mWnÃtÃm ?’ Aksâ sshZn`v k¶p ANt¯¡v NpWnªp Wn¶v tImUn¨ hvs_cn]psX Wn_ª fp`]ns`¡m\v tKmKn tWm¡n]Sv .

“” Sn^¡m]n^p¶p hvs_cn ..””

“” Òw .. Sn^¡`vbw Np_]v¡v … dnWpkntWmXpw b_tª¡v ..Asæn`v sN]^v shâ_nWv bN^w M§av tks_ kÃSpw WX¯pfnknsX … SmWm]Sv sNm*v hvs_áv Npj¸fnà …Òvfw …..tWm¡n skÅfn_¡msS k*n knXv tfmsW …””

H^p f\n¡q^v FXp¯nà sdWvhv lsFÉmWvZv F¯pkmWv … k`ns]m^p knÃ]nt`¡v F¯pt¼mav hzn½nwPv bqanWn^pklkpw BapNav Wn_ª knh-vNn ¥mhpNapfm]n , tW^n] lЯnt`mjpNp¶ fyqhn¡ntWm¯p IpkXp sk¡p¶p*m]n^p¶p .

“” im]v hvs_Ãm … _m\n hv_ocWv CX_p¶ Nm`pNtamsX AXpt¯¡v k¶t¸mav hvs_à Aks^ sN«n¸nXn¨p .

“” siu shN-vhn `p¡v hvs_Ãm …… C¨m]Wv bqhm …N®n`v sbX*m …. N¯n sk¨v sNmÃpw ..Abvhvs_]_n`v dm`v¡\n]n`v D*v F_mavZv ..”’

hvs_à dm`v¡\n]ns`¡v tWm¡n .. F^n]p¶ hnPm^v fm{Sw Nm\mw .. fn¶n¡¯p¶ i`_ davdpNav Nm^\w Bsa kyàfÃ

‘ tKmKn]nknsX Wnt¶m …MmWv ‘ sNm*v tbm]n b^nI]s¸Xp¯n]n«p k^mw “”

“” Hmt¡ …sÌÃm …H^p fnWnäv “” tKmKn hs_Ãs] A¸p_t¯¡v fmän Wn^v¯n .

“” CSm sbs¸^vhv …sshWv sI¿n¡msS k^^pSv … WnW¡_n]mtÃm tNmXnNapsX dnhnsWhm CSv fq`w Nn«mWv tbmNp¶Sv … BKokWm´w “”

“” tKmKnt]mXp b`Sk\ b_ªn«p*v WÃ Nm^y¯nWv tbmNpt¼m bp_No¶v knan¡^psS¶p .. b_¨n`v tN«m`v tSm¶pw MmWnSmUyfm]n«m\v dnhnsWhv hwhm^n¡mWv tbmNp¶sS¶v .””””

tKmKns]m¶pw fn*n]nà .

“” AtS]v … Aks^t¸mjm , F§sW]m Fs¶ Sn^n¨p knXps¶]¶_n]nà … bqhm]n NnXs¶¡^pSv … FWn¡v ss{Zkv sI¿mWv bänà fX§pt¼mav””””

hvs_Ã _m\n]psX H¸w fpNant`¡v WX¶t¸mav tKmKn bqansâ sshZns`¡v WX¶p .

k`ns]m^p knÃ]psX k`Sp emP¯m]m\v Woa¯n`pÅ B bqav . sIXnNan`pw fäpw s`Zv ss`äpNav sNm*v ftWmi^fm¡n]n^n¡p¶p … CSmUyfm]Ã _m\n hv_ocsâ knÃ]n`v bm^v«n WX¡p¶Sv .. _m\n]psX ihv hv_ocWv KWn¨p ka^v¶Sv Wyqhn`m*n`m\v … CX¡v dnhnsWhn`v tNm«w k¶t¸mav _m\n]psX fnXp¡v ( N¼nNp«³.sWäv