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N¼nNp«³.sWäv l^o^w ) sNm*m\v A]mav C¡m\p¶ dnhnsWhv hm{fmKyw sN«n]p]^v¯n]Sv . A_pbSv k]hv Ds*¦n`pw _m\n B dnhnsWhv hm{fmKy¯nsâ _m\n Ss¶]m\v .. tNmXnNapsX Zo`v WX¡p¶ CSv tbms`]pÅ bm^v«nNav AknsX fn¡km_pw WX¡m_pÅSm\v. B hf]¯v Wm«n`v Wn¶v WXnfms^ ks^ Ak^v sNm*v k^pw .
dnhnsWhpNm^v S½n`v WX¡p¶ foän§pNav knK]w N*nsæn`v AknsX H^p CXWn`¡m^n]m]n _m\n {bSy£s¸Xpw ..fUy¯n`pw fUn^m£n]n`pw GSm*v 90 lSfmWkpw _m\n]psX knÃ]n`v sk¨m Zo`pNav D_¸n¡pw .. A§sW SpX§p¶ B dnhnWhns` BUys¯ b^vt¨hnsâ `me¯n`v AWvbSv lSfmWkpw , SpX^v¶pÅSn`v b¯p lSfmWkpw _m\n¡pÅSm\v. hq¸^v fm^v¡än`v k`n] SpN¡v Bklyw k¶m`v tKmKn]ks^]m\v B{l]n¡pN .. Akt^mXpÅ AXp¸w kjn Wyqhn`m*ns` H^p {bkly]n`v hs¹ WX¯pkmWpÅ H^p , cpZv N¼Wn]psX N^m^v tKmKn¡v `en¨p . ASv sNm*p*m] `mew AksW f_n¨p In´n¡pkmWv t{b^n¸n¨p . bns¶ sI_n] ^*p fq¶p N¼WnNapsX hs¹ NqXn]kWv `en¨p . ASns`m^p {bmklyw bm^v«n]n`v fUyw kna¼mWpw Sp\n]p^n]mWpw Bsa Nn«msS k¶t¸mav B\v _m\n S©¯n`v tKmKns] sNm*v hvs_Ã]psX Nm^yw b_ªp h½Sn¸n¨Sv ..BUysfm¶pw ^*p tb^pw AXp¯nÃms]¦n`pw Nn«pkmWv tbmNp¶ dnhnWhns` `me¡\¡pNav b_ªp _m\n Aks^]SnWp t{b^n¸n¨p .. H^p {bmklys¯Wv F¶v D_¸n¨p k¶ hvs_à Ct¸mav kn^`n`v F®mkp¶Sn`pfVnNfm]n CknsX k^mWv SpX§n]n«v .. Ssâ]pw tKmKn]psX]pw dnhnWhv Zo`pNav¡pw , bns¶ tKmKn]_n]msS _m\n]psX Bkly¯nWpw ..Aà ..Ssâ bq_nsâ NXn]X§mWpw . hmUm hf]kpw Nmlv , dnhnWhv , f`]man Nq«m]vf Fs¶ms¡ b_ªp WX¡p¶ tKmKns] Akav BUyw Ss¶ fXp¯n^p¶p , i\nfq\v WmapNan`v Ss¶ . A§sW]n^n¡pt¼mjm\v tKmKn]psX fp¶n`v sk¨pSs¶ _m\n C§sWs]m^p Hmc^v sk¡p¶Sv . BUyw FSn^vs¯¦n`pw Akav DÅn`v ht´mgn¡pN]m]n^p¶p . bns¶ Ak^psX Zo`pNavt¡m fäp fp´n] Zo`pNavt¡m _m\n¡v tks_]ms^]pw sNm*v kt^*n k¶n«nà .
kas^ sb«¶v Ss¶ hvs_à tKmKn]psX tf`v BVnbSyw Ømbn¨p .

“” ssi fmNv “”

sfmssd`n`v Bt^mtXm hwhm^n¡pN]m]n^p¶p fmNv F_mavZnsâ fp¶nt`¡v Ak^v sI¶p. AXpt¯¡v sI¶t¸mjm\v hvs_à A]msa Nm\p¶Sv . B_Xn¡v tfs` D]^fpÅ A]mav N_p¯ tNm«m\v C«n^p¶Sv . Wot{Pmt]¡mav Wn_w … A¸tWm A½t]m skap¼Wv B]n^n¡psf¶v hvs_à Hm^v¯p . BUyfm]m\v C§sW H^mav .fpWvbv FÃmw skap¼·m^m]n^p¶p .. N_p¯k^psX Np®¡v k`n¸w NqXpS`v B]n^n¡psf¶v b_ªp tN«Sv N¼nNp«³.sWäv